So I'm starting to notice how she's starting to push me away bit by bit, without actually making it noticeable. So I'm thinking maybe I should just give up. Maybe that time we spent together as a couple years ago, was the ONLY time. This sucks that I really have no one to talk about this with other than myself, and I'm telling myself to just give up. Like don't even worry about it, it won't happen cause its not suppose to happen. Cause if it was, then it would have been done. But then part of me says not to lose hope or anything, n just let shit happen, and if anything happens then thats cool, and if not then thats cool too. I really don't know what to do. I told Darrius that I wasn't going to stress it, but it seems that I can't help it. I just want me and her to be US once again, and its like I'm right there but it's still out of reach. I don't know maybe this really means I should hope for the worst, rather than praying that things'll work. I need to stop thinking.