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why give up? why give in? it's not enough, it never is so I will go on until the end |
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ex girlfriends are the worst. especially the ones that try n come back, but then don't want to fully come back because of "complications". i mean seriously stop lying to me. you don't want to come back, you just want someone you can string along and toy with, and you came back to me cause you knew i'd let you....or so you thought. you know, since me and you ended, i've had other females during that time and some of them have tried to play the same game you're playing. and with those 'experiences' it helped me build up walls to defend myself and my heart. and trust me, they have tried all sorts of strategies and i have adapted to each and everyone of them. with that said, you can keep trying all you want, but you're just wasting your time....On Saturday, August 21, 2010 at 21.8.10 I-I-I Want It.....
I am actually glad that Skye and Craig finally got together after so god damned long. You would have thought since I liked her so much, that I would try n fuck it all up just so I could gain the upper hand, and I'm sure thats what someone else would have done, but not me. Every time she even thought about giving up, I told her not to. I'm sure other people told her to, but what do they know eh. Honestly I just hope that everything works out with the both of them, since all I really want is for her to be happy eh. I've been down here in Norfolk for about a week now, and I'm still debating on if I want to go see my father. I want to, but I just don't want him to be drunk when I go over there like the last time. He tends to act differently when he's drunk, not like abusive or anything like that, just mad goofy-like and I hate it. I pray I don't end up like him. I move out at the end of this month, which means I'll be living with my mother for a couple months which isn't going to be fun at all. I'm trying to hurry in finding a job, so she can hurry and move out, so I can live alone ^_^. I need to start moving stuff out, but I haven't been home for a week and I don't know when I'm going back this week. I need to go back soon cause I have to get a storage unit to put my desk n all my electronics and stuff in there since my mom's place is too small. Shit....how am I supposed to make music now? I really don't have anything else to blog about. For some odd reason I feel like I need a girlfriend now, but at the same time I feel that I wouldn't have time for her. One of my friends said I need a 'local' relationship, but how would I go about that exactly. "Hey ma check it, I'm 23, just moved back in with my moms, no job but I'm looking, I'm a nerd and I rap on the side. Whats good?" Yeaaaah that should be fun lol. I also realized that I do better with long distance relationships cause its not based on sex. I mean yeah theres talks of us doing it when we meet, but thats past my month mark isnt it? So its not all bad. Meh w/e I'm done go away and stop reading. On Monday, August 16, 2010 at 16.8.10 |
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